I think I have PCSD
As in, Post-College Stupidity Disorder.
Ever since I got back from London and graduated, I feel like I’m realizing that I’m not a very smart person. I’ve been doing some really dumb shit. The other day, working at my stepmom’s cafe, I left the register on the VOID function for like an hour, voiding out past transactions instead of ringing new ones in. Derp. Then I drove down to Brooklyn for the night and parked on the side of the street, paid the meter, and thought I was good. But the next morning I had a $115 ticket because BIDERP I had parked in front of a fire hydrant! The town I grew up in didn’t have metered parking anywhere (or fire hydrants I guess) and I didn’t even notice it at ALL when I parked. Fml.
None of this is helped by the fact that I’ve moved back in with my parents and that they treat me like I’m 14. And I’m making my money by working at a cafe and babysitting even though I now have 2 BAs.
It’s just that for the past 5 years—and my whole life—my self awareness of my intelligence has been based on the grades I got in school. But now that I’m not in school anymore, what am I really worth? What was the point of all those A’s (and, well, B’s) if I can’t do shit in the real world?
Did anyone else feel this way when they graduated & wanna make me feel better? Or am I just a dumbass? :(